Rememberances

To remember is to enter your most dreaded and darkest room in the house. To remember those fears and pains and heart breaks is to enter the room that has remained locked. Standing outside that door your heart pounds with the overpowering sense of terror. "Don't make me enter that room, at least don't make me enter that door alone." But you are drawn to enter because you remember. Imagination can do wonders or it can tear you apart from the inside. To stand before that dreaded door terrified and alone. You remember what is in there, you remember that darkness, that great sadness. To remember is to enter that darkness. To remember is to let it overtake you. To let the mind wander can be a very dangerous thing. But once you enter that dreaded door, there is no going back, no wishing things were different, no running away from the issues and problems. Once you enter, you can be consumed and overtaken. But there is hope, yes, there is hope. But you are too blind to see it. You have stayed too long in that room, too long behind that door. You have let all these emotions and the memories of conversations and circumstances consume you constantly. You have been constantly overtaken by all those memories. You have been paralyzed by your own mind that you cannot even turn around to see your one and only hope. Light. To shed even one ray of light in the darkness will then slowly rid the entire room of it. But how can you think of light in darkness? Will then the darkness slowly be shattered by the light? All there is, is the darkness all around you. You have been living in this darkness for far too long. Turn around. Reach out your arm. Stop living with your heart overtaken by fear. Stop living with your shoulders bent over from the weight of the great sadness. To remember is really to forgive. To remember is far from forget but it is to live again. To remember is to enter your most dreaded and darkest room in the house with the intentions of turning the light on. Once the light is turned on, it will stay on. But it does take a lot of work and constant reminders to keep that light shining in that room that was once filled with darkness. However, you can freely pass through the rooms once there is no more darkness and it is exposed to the light that you worked to turn on. To remember is to enter the darkness and to reach out for that moment of shining glorious and magnificent light. Go ahead, take a step towards that door, turn the knob, push open that door, and take that first step into the darkness. Don't be afraid to move, to reach out, and to forgive it all.